That terrible evening plays itself over and over again in my mind. Almost a year and I still felt the pain as if it happened yesterday. I thought I’d surprise him by coming home from my business trip a day early. I creep through the house and to the backyard. What I found was unbelievable. Having, by the look on there face, very enjoyable sex is my husband and my best friend. My reaction was sort of a black out. She knows now that all those years of being such a quiet girl didn’t mean I couldn’t hold my own.
As for him well, these boots are made for walking and that day they sure as hell walked all over him. I still can’t believe the two people in my life I trusted most betrayed me in such a hurtful way. Needless to say, I am now best friendless, and from what I hear she is careful not to run into me. The divorce still isn’t final. He fought it for so long. Telling me how it was the first time, they were drinking, it was a stupid mistake, and he loved me. I still love him very much, but every time I look at him I see them together. That’s not something I can handle.
I had to help Michael get started today. He was our friend, but when you split up, you split your friends as well. He obtained a position with my company as the new Operations Manager. They wanted me to show him the ropes, since we knew each other and I once held that very position. I just hoped it wouldn’t be awkward, him being Benny’s friend, and my being the soon to be ex-wife. I walked into the office and just thought wow, Mike has been taking care of himself. He was never ugly, and his body was normal. But now he had a new hairstyle with a goatee, and I could tell through the suit, he started working out.
“Vanessa, long time no see. How have you been?” He bent over to kiss me on the cheek and I enjoyed the smell of his cologne.
“Hey Michael, I’ve been good. Busy with work, you know how it is. How have you been? How’s Denise?”
“So you haven’t heard?”
“Heard what?”
“Denise and I are no longer together. We were going to take a trip to Mexico, before going she said we had to talk. Turned out she’s been seeing some guy for 2 months. So 2 weeks later I moved out and made some big changes in my life.”
I could not believe what I just heard. “I can see that. When did all this happen?”
“It’s been almost 2 months now.”
“How are you dealing with it?”
“Pretty good actually, we were headed in two different directions. It was for the best. Listen for what it’s worth, as far as I know that Benny and Janet thing was a one-time thing. I’m sorry it happened. I don’t know what he was thinking.”
“Thanks, but it’s not a subject I like to talk about.” It seemed that in the 10 months that I had distanced my self from everybody a lot had taken place. Some people obviously knew how to take the bad and make it good. I wish I knew the secret. On the outside I looked great, but on the inside I still hadn’t healed.
“So Mike, how did you like your first day on the job?”
“It wasn’t so bad. Thanks for helping me out. Where you headed now?”
“Oh home, finish up some work and crawl into bed.”
“Lets go get something to eat, and play a game of pool. You can put the work off and the bed will be there no matter what time you get home.”
It sounded like a nice idea, I barely go out now days. “Sure, what do you have in mind?”
“I kicked your ass again! You sure you wonna play another game Mike?”
“The only reason your winning is because I hit the gym now, not the bars.”
“Excuses, excuses.” I hadn’t played pool in so long, I couldn’t believe I remembered how. “I had a really good time, thanks for dragging me out.”
“Yeah so did I. Breaking up with Denise was the easy part, finding my self alone every night was the hard part. You seem to be doing pretty good, considering everything.”
I smiled unsure if I should tell him the truth. “Looks can be deceiving. I still cry into my pillow about what happened. I know I’m young and things will get better. But the past 10 months have been so hard. I turn to my work, keep my mind busy.” I felt Michael giving a sympathetic stare. I could feel that there was more than just sympathy behind his nice eyes. “We better be going, got to go to work tomorrow. I know you’re not planning on calling out your second day.” Once we were by our cars Mike pulled me in close for a hug. Maybe it was because I hadn’t been with anyone in so long, but it was such a good feeling hug. It left butterflies in m stomach.
“Listen V, if there’s anything you need or you just don’t wonna be alone, call me. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Now I’m a bit confused. There was something in the way he spoke to me that made me feel he meant a little more than what he was actually saying. Nah, he’s one of Benny’s closest friends. What is wrong with me, here I am tossing and turning because I have Mike on my mind. I need to get a grip.
“So how long has it been since you’ve done any type of real exercise?”
“Do I have to answer that? Thanks for inviting me to the gym, my body needs it.”
“I don’t think your body needs anything. It’s fine just the way it is.”
The past two weeks have been crazy for me. Mike and I began hanging out more. He’s been passing me more subtle compliments. Our hands would touch when reaching for the same file and I’d be on fire. He knew it too. What really drove me nuts was working out with him tonight. He had such a fine, sexy body.
“Earth to Vanessa, are you in there?”
“Huh, oh um what were you saying?”
“I was asking if you brought along your regular clothes, cause if so you can use the shower at my place and we can go to the show from there. I do live closer to the comedy club.”
My whole body screamed yes, my mind yelled no. It wouldn’t be right. What the hell, I decided to go with my body. “That sounds very good.” By the way he smiled at me I knew he caught the flirtatious tease in my voice. “You have a very nice apartment, I’m surprised to find it so clean.”
“Funny, I’m not your typical bachelor. I know the value of cleanliness. Here you go, it’s a homemade smoothie. You’ll like it. Oops, you have a little something right there.”
“Liar!”
“No, really.”
He leaned over and ran his tongue across my top lip. That little move caused my whole body to react. It soon turned into a soft kiss. He kissed so passionately. With my hands draped across his neck he pulled me closer to him. I quickly felt he was also having a reaction. He started caressing my breast through my shirt. Slowly I ended the kiss. “We can’t do this. As good as you feel, and as much as I would love too. We just can’t.”
“Why not? We are both two young, single people. We find each other attractive. It’s just you and me here. Tell me why not?”
It took me a minute to respond. Having his man part rub against me wasn’t helping. “Please, don’t question me. Just understand.” He let me go and walked into the kitchen.
“As you noticed, I’m in need of a cold shower. I’ll go first, I won’t be long.”
I hated to see him walk away. Was I stupid by not going for it? He left me all hot and bothered. Things would be too weird afterward. No one would be able to know. Dammit, it’s time I start enjoying my self and living life.
“Do you mind if I join you?” I stood there naked for while before making my presence known. I enjoyed watching the water run down his body. By the time I called his attention I was all flushed and my nipples were as hard as rocks.
With out even an answer he grabbed my hand and helped me into the shower. Soon we were locked in a sweet kiss. Skin touching skin. My full breast rubbing against his body. His mouth sucking on my neck. I reached down to grab him and he was already at attention. As his mouth found my breast and played with my nipples I moved my hand up and down his shaft. He kissed his way down to my female part. He licked, tasted, and played the way I had never had done to me before.
After my body spasms, I wanted to make him feel just as good. On my knees I went. I circled my tongue around his head before taking all of him into my mouth. He was a big man, and I enjoyed every minute of it. The way I continuously sucked with out bringing it out of my mouth had him moaning loud enough for the neighbors to hear. I noticed the wetness I was feeling and tasting was more than just water. Once again I was in his arms sucking this time his tongue.
“Oh mike, oh this feels so good.”
“Vanessa, I’ve wanted you for a very long time. I’ve always wondered what it would be like to have the honor of pleasing you. Oh, you feel so good!”
With my back pressed against the shower wall, he lifted me up so that he could slip inside me. He pressed against me harder and harder, and I welcomed it. As he went in and out he would grind against me. His mouth tasted my breast. All of it was total ecstasy. I began to kiss him teasingly, which drove us both to the edge. I bounced on top of him as he pounded into me. While kissing and biting each other’s lips we both climaxed. He slowly brought him self to the sitting position in the tub while still holding on to me. As I sat on top of him out of breath, all I thought was wow; I’ve been healed. All I needed all along was a sexual healing.
